reminiscing

one year ago today i was patiently waiting for signs that my drewbear was to come.   i had early contractions, just as i did with james, but nothing definitive.  i was bigger than a house {with the double chin to prove it}, had a baby already at home {although he was going on 18 months}, and was so supremely nervous to bring another home. 

39 weeks

it was about this time that in my hormonal state that aaron came home to me sobbing on the couch with a sleeping james in my non-existent lap.  when he asked me what was wrong, my word vomit came out something like, "i'm an awful person.  i don't want to screw up our perfect family of three!"  aaron calmly reassured me that although we have such a good thing now, something even better was about to happen to our perfect family.  i don't know if husbands really do get it, or it seems like it because pregnant women are hormonal, exhausted, delirious with anticipation.  either way, i was grateful for those sweet words out of his mouth.  he has a way of melting fears away.

even with his reassurance, i {crazy, of course} didn't realize the awesome miracle that was about to happen to our family.

late night snuggles with my only boy. 
waiting for our new brother to arrive!

God chose us.  He chose us to raise two completely unique, spunky, and wonderfully made boys.  little did i know that a week later, on his due date, our lives would change for the better.  we didn't screw up our family, but we gave james the greatest gift we could ever give him.  a brother.

as i reminisce about the next week, counting down the days until our little man turns one, i will be forever humbled at how incredible james took to being a big brother.  i look back through all of my pictures and how this part was made for him.  God knew, He always does. 


He knew what He was doing.
Photo courtesy of Melissa Dale Photography